Should Have

In this part, is where I realize that I missed a chance
I have this script in mind, when I linger in your arms
I should’ve said something, not just being too drown by enjoyment

“I’m going to state this, but please just listen, and don’t bother.

I’m so sorry, I find a comfort within you.

I’m going to miss you so much.

You know when I’m quiet, I just think how about later? Us?

Am I going to through it easily like before, or what we’re afraid of happen.

Because, before this, I never felt it to-and-with you.

And about this, why I need you to not bother, because I’m afraid it’ll lead into something.

Something I’m gonna regret why I stating this.”

I said that, but I don’t have courage to look into your eyes
While my arms also hugging you, and my tip fingers made a tiny circular motion
I just hope, when I said that, your respond either just a quiet or something regretful
Because we both know, we can’t be a thing
Look at me now, the result of didn’t say that has the same if your responded too painful to hear
I should’ve said something back then if this has the same effect
Or
Let me imagine something beautiful for once, please
When I stated, your respond is just by lowering your head a bit
So when our eyes in the same level, you kissed me
That respond, will lead another confusing act and meaning, perhaps
Whether it soothed me, or worried me
Damn, why can’t I be happy for once even in imagination?
Poor me, poor this heart, and blessed another soul that just died

foolishness

I'm such a fool for decide to stay.
Just because I believe that he will come back.
But what if he won't?
Sighing calmly, because it's not so hard for me.
Time heals, always like old times.
I won't start open it again soon.
I'm afraid of hurting someone.
Then I make a border like old times.

I'm believing you like a fool.
A couple days when you were mine,
Or making me was yours.
I kept guessing that it was the sign,
When you know that I will waiting.
You imprint me, like a wolf do.
But who am I kidding.
I'm just a fool for believing.